Thinking

Thinking and knowledge are not the same.
Sometimes I find there are thoughts that invade.
Where did they come from I know there not mine.
My heart always wants to be loving and kind.
Whatever a man thinks on he will be.
Lord help me to keep my thoughts on Thee.

Sleep

Struggling to move, I hear things or people, it's life, moving on without me. I am sleep but I am awake. I can hear but I can't see and I cant move sleep is holdin me captive. Stuck between a dream and reality. My breathing slowed by anxiety. I hear someone call and my baby toe twitches my heart it races but still I stay in darkness and I am frozen by sleep. How can I escape this weight that keeps me out of the race. How did I find myself in this state. Awake but still sleeping.......

Stumbling / Stepping Stone

I didn't see you so I found myself stumbling then falling to the ground.  I started to cry from the pain but then I found, that the fall had moved me forward a little more then just walking could've.  So I rose to my feet and stood top of you the way I should've. Instead of letting the pain be the focus of my location, I see now your purpose is for my elevation. I stand there for a moment to see the changes I need to make, and now I see the mistakes. Looking back and looking down are what brought me to the ground, but I'm looking forward now. I will see you coming next time and move quickly to stand on top. No I will not wallow on the ground in despair, because I know you are only there, to help me move me forward.

Imagination

Imagination

Clear or cloudy you must understand the body does not care. It preceive it all the same real or imaginary. And so it is propelled toward the place the mind abides. There are no secrets from the body that the mind can hide. So think about things that are lovely and things that are virtuous. Imagine yourself successful, don't let your mind be aimless. See the fruit of your labor before it is in your hands, than you will never stop no matter what life demands.  Think about what you want and not what's before you. Let you words speak life and actions be percise. Focus on your goal and never let it go.

Imagination sets the pace for destination - Dr. Fred Hodge

Proverbs 23:7 What a man thinks in his heart so is he.

BETRAYAL

It was betrayal that sent Christ to the cross
Bleeding to death
No friends to protest
If he only looked at the circumstance
Allowed depression to take over,
Yes it had a chance


If for a moment he forgot who he was
Let fear be his confess or lost his trust
Let doubt be his vision
If he'd made a different decision....


It was betrayal that sent Christ to the cross
Apart of the plan to save us who were lost.

TRUTH

I said I was tired then I realized what I was sayin

I was confessing the wrong thing and given power to satan

feelin the weight of my words remembering they have power

life or death which would I choose in this hour



The truth is the battle is the Lords anyway

and weakness comes from trying to do it my way

The truth is I can do all things through Christ

And when I trust God everything works out right.

Doubt

Words or deeds,

what do I believe

they don't always match

at least that's what I perceive


So what do I trust what you say or what you do

Are you purposely trying to have me confused

I am tired of trying to figure it out

I am tired of tip toeing because of doubt


Time will tell and we will see

If you are being honest or lying to me.

So I'm moving slowly enough to find out

If the fruit that you bare confirms my doubt.

Peace

It can be stolen if you focus on the wrong things

It can fade if you forget about your dreams

Peace is something to fight for everyday

Don't let peoples words take it away

Facts are not your truth so seek what is

Favor from God through His grace is what lives

The Kingdom is within don't ever forget

And everyday let that be what you project

Peace that passes all understanding, seen in your eyes

Because the joy of knowing God flows all up inside.

It can be stolen and it can fade,

You have to make a choice everyday.

Shouldna

I shouldna done it

I ate two apple pies

I shouldna done it

It will go straight to my thighs

Oh well now it is done

guess I'll go out for run

It sure tasted good

and I guess if I could

I would do it all again.

Cry

I'm not gonna cry it aint worth my time and energy

I'm not gonna cry the love God has is enough for me

I'm not gonna cry that just seems to magnify the pain

I'm not gonna cry cause I know the sun comes out after rain.


I'm gonna keep my mind on God

I'm gonna cast my cares on him

I'm gonna set myself up for a new life to begin



I'm gonna lift Jesus higher

I'm gonna praise his holy name

I'm gonna believe my life is gonna change

Child

There is so much I thought I had before you came into my life. Like I thought I had love til I saw your pretty brown eyes. I thought I had patience til you said mama one more time. I thought I had kindness til you asked my for the last of what was mine. I just knew I had peace until it was kindergarten time. Of course no one could take my joy til you fell off your bike and scrapped away the side of your face. And goodness well, "why you do that mama", you asked that faithful day. Gentleness I think I've done well with that or maybe not cause sometimes I loose self-control and my voice stops being quiet and calm and I start to yell. There is so much I thought I had before you came into my life. I thought you were mine to teach, but it seems your here to help me grow up.

Love

Love I feel you in my soul wanting to take control. With every breath I take I feel you helpin me to smile, to grow, to to become a better me. You see me for who I am and it doesn't change how you feel. Love I give my heart completely to you because I know you will handle it with care. Everything that is in me I want to share with you and all that you are I want to know intimately.

LIES

When you don't have what you want you want it more.

When you have what you want you don't want it no more.

When you get what you deserve than you're surprised.

When you deserve what you get for tellin lies.



When the only thought in your head is your desires.

When you don't see that everyone round you is gettin tired.

Then you get what you deserve and you're surprised.

Then you deserve what you get for tellin lies.



Then you want to start saying you're sorry.

Then the I love you's, do I believe it, hardly.

Now you get what you deserve and you're surprised?

Now you get what you deserve for tellin lies.

Son

Alone but out in the open every one sees you but no one does. Taken all you can to survive. Leaving things of worth behind. Empty of life like a dry dessert. This is your life. It was not something you hoped to be, but what your choices have given. A shopping cart filled to the top nothing in it worth the tears you've dropped. To late for I'm sorry the bridges are all burned. Now you have no where to turn. Took for granted all that you had. Now you have no where to lay your head. The pain that you fill is doubled in me cause you are mine and forever will be.

Listen

Listen not just with your ear
Hear not just to what I say
Be aware of how my body moves

Listen to the tone of my voice
Hear not the vibration of sound
Be aware of every part of what I say

Listen so you don't misunderstand
Hear what is not said at all
Be aware of how I'm feelin

Commitment

A promise a word that is not broken or spoken unsure. Not dust carried away in the wind but sturdy and everlasting. Words spoken with life given wings and put to flight. Given strength because of action that is steady without restraint. Like I do love you for better or worst. I'll be there even when it hurts. Or I'm on your team through the thick and thin. I'll be there to make sure you win. What about words spoken to ourselves? These promises made should hold the same wealth. Words mean something and have power we don't see. There the breath that pushes us toward what we receive. Yes I now realize I must be committed to me.

Comfortable

Comfortable feels good but sometimes it isn't, cause when its time to move sometimes you miss it. At ease nothing seems to be wrong, walkin along singing a song, but life is ever changing so don't let comfort do the upstaging. When comfort seems to be all you feel be careful you may be being still, while opportunities are passing you by. Take a chance move out of that comfort zone. Don't worry you wont be alone. Then instead of just comfort filling your life, happiness can take a part inside.

Time

Time
You look back and see its tracks have been movin along never changin direction and you realized you have been forced forward by it constantly. Every second a part of your life gone never to return, and when you stop and think about it, and wonder if you made the right choices you realize, every choice made you who you are at that moment. So its all good, and you recognize goodness and mercy right there behind you, so you press on with a smile thankin God for life and precious time.

Eyes

What they see is not always what is. What they perceive is not always true. They forget quickly what was and try to imagine what is to come. They need their friends. They need ears, and nose, and hands, and tongue. To take on the fullness of life. To not be deceived by life. And still common sense is needed. Which come to find out is not common at all.

Peace

Peace, its what I strive for everyday, to have it I know must obey. The Word says stop being anxious and say what I need than be thankful before I receive it. Well any way what's all the worrin gone do but tear my insides through and through. So though I don't see the answer right now I know for sure its comin some how. God will do what He said He would do, and I believe. That is why today I have peace.